A Girl Been Neglected

In the dark corner sits a girl, she hardly speak up her mind to anyone. A lost and lonely girl who sheds a single tear thinking she has not purpose in life. Mom and dad don't really care, she doesn't have value in life. Never anyone there to help her with her strife and tripping over problems. Or simply just don't understand my situation and thinking. All they care is what they want me to do. But never ask me whether i can or not, am willing to do it or not, am i able to do it or not. She desperately wish that there was someone to help her on her way and bring her far far away from this place. A single friend in life that really truly cares but no one is found. At her fragile heart it tears a sad and lonely life she lives. So she sits in the corner and cries. Hurt her arms a little and wishes she would die so the misery will no more. So listen to me I'm trying to make you see for that girl in the corner that lonely girl is me!!!!

Sometimes i wish i was a little girl again because bruised knees heal faster than a broken and disappointed heart especially to a lost girl. My sister told me this before, "Sometimes we have to do tasks that we may not be interested but along the way we may develop interest or even find something else of interest. If we don't go out and try, put in effort how can we know what we want?" Honestly, i want to reply her "I want to try, I want to put in effort but please don't pour cold water on me when i'm trying"! As a parent they should encourage not pouring cold water on me when i'm on my way to change. I know it's a shame that you had this kind of daughter, i remembered clearly how you compare me to others daughters. BUT do you think i want to be your daughter? Naturally i blamed you for bringing what i am today, but i shoudn't think it this way. After all it's my own fault! I want you to know nobody is born flawless. I feel pressure to face you. I envy those who are able to talk, jokes and doing things together with their family. I'm the one who always been left out during dinner. Sitting there like a fool, everyone is busy talking about their stuff. A family dinner is all about business? I hate what i have now. Not a single things went smoothly.

I've made a mistake in my life. I've let people taking advantage of me and i accepted way to less than i deserve. I just want you to know, "I'm done pretending! I want to tell you "No, i'm not okay with the fact that you broke my heart and disappointed me way too much"! I know what's in your mind, I know you know that you know me so well that you think what you did can be forgiven. I know you think i can easily forgive and forget. But i just want you to know for the very last time, i will prove to you that "NO, You don't know me well at all"! Let me prove to you, how heartless can a girl goes if one day she really get fed up. I dare you to challenge me this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!