Fight Back To School 6

Holiday is over!!!!!!!!!!!! Times to overcome the laziness and start to be serious since it might be my last semester. Holidays are enticing only for the first week or so. After that, it is no longer such a novelty to rise late and have little to do. How to get rid of the lazy worm that stay in my brain, my mind and my soul during the holidays? *hmmm* I predict it will be a lonely semester for me but still i have to struggle through it. Tomorrow i'm going to clear all the books that had piled up in my room. The room is so messy, all the dust and dirt is getting thicker and thicker. It's been quite a while i dint actually clean up my room. Guess it's the lazy worm fault. q:op Been telling myself that "You learn something every day if you pay attention." I believed that every human has four endowments which are; Self awareness, Conscience, Independent will and Creative imagination. These give us the ultimate human freedom. The power to choose, to respond and to change.

Do I Have The Chance To Continue?

I regretted so much for what i did in the past, i'm trying so hard to mend myself but you seem not giving me the chance and let times prove to you that i had actually changed since the day i turn over a new leaf. All you know is nag*3 and scold*3. Sometimes you make me feel like i have not much time left. What i have gone thru, i sincerely advise to those who is much younger then me, study while you can and do whatever your parent think is right; follow their will and you will led a better life in future. First of all, you wont have to listen or face the furious faces. In my daydream how i wish one day there is a huge fortune ($$) drop in front of me. Then i can bravely stood up and says " NOW I DONT HAVE TO DEPEND ON YOU and most importantly live like what i want"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yu huuuu... Back to reality man. DuHhh ~~~ Sigh... The only things i should focus is to get gud marks for this coming semester. To continue my studies or not, well, will see how things goes this years end. When i think about it i feel real stress/pressure!!! *Argh*

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Month Of August

Good Morning, it's 6.48am Saturday and i'm still awake since yesterday. Going to my comfortable bed soon. 1st day of August, hoping for a brand new month and i will had an abundance of happiness, good news*es and surprices for this month. There are few commitment to be complete and im now crossing my fingers that i can make it! Times for a change, time for a different, time to motivate myself! GO GO C.H.R.I.S you can make it if you work hard. Prove to urself and be proud of ursef. *wink* 1 week holiday left and next monday have to kick my butt to wake up early for class. It will be a lonely semester for me, as all my new friends in this college will b in different classes but in same school. Gonna miss the one who sit beside me.. Yeah... THAT'S YOU!!!!!!!!!! Well, i'm praying hard everthing goes smoothly for this month. *Crossing my finger* By next week i have to start adjusting my times, bed at 11-12pm then wake up at 8am if there is classes at 8.30 (no more breakfast with YOU?) *S.a.d* I hardly can open my eyes now, time to get up and jump to my bed. But i'm still thinking what should i do after i wake up later? It's Saturday definitely i wont want to stay at home because school kick off on Monday, don't wish to waste this Saturday by staying home. I had enough time wasted at home this holiday *Grumbles* Alright, i'll stop here. Have a nice day to those who read this!!!! @_@

Worst Experience

There again i know something that i wasn't suppose to know. Am asking myself how many times i have to cover for you? Or how many times can i cover it for you? You should be more responsible on what you're doing. This ain't a way to solve your problem, then by letting the problem fall on another person. Do you think it is a right way? Since the day i met you it was the biggest mistake and god are you making fun on me huh? i wanted to admit that fate fall in our hands and now i strongly disagreed. My life seem to be control by you, i have to face what i do not want to face. I have to see wad i don't want to see. And now i have to do something that i don want to do. What is life all about? Hurting each other? Note for you, "You are literally driving me insane"!!!!!

Gorge

I keep gorging myself with foods. It make me more and more bulbous. Probably this is a way to release stress and pressure. When one's get older the more commitment we have to face or deal with. Just done with feet vinegar soaking in order to remove the callous. Feel great and fresh!!

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Results

Yeshhhhhhh....... Got my results and passed with credits. Work hard and u'll be paid for it. Looking forward for my last semester to start, 3 subject left. Hopefully can get a better result by years end.. *RAWL* Chris you can do it!!!!!!!!!!!! Sadly, left 2 week holiday and i'm still stuck in Kuching.

Tears & Living In Fears

When will it end? Will i just stop crying before bed? Tears come like a flood that as if never goin to dry up. Will i ever know why I fall asleep crying at night. Just the feeling of being alone makes me shudder. A constant war goin on in my body, everyday, every second. When will it end. Feelings take over my body like i have no control. First Im happy, then Im sad, then all of a sudden Im crying. It's pretty sad that the parents you live with, talk about you behind your back. For me it feels like when you lie down on those rafts in the waterand you drift away. But for me, i don't come back. I just keep drifting into space. I don't mean to sound desperate, but will someone please tell me when my tears will dry. When will it end? Everyday living in fear and pressure about something that can actually be predicted before it happened. Someone told me "seek for god's help" but personally i don't think it will help. Problem creates by human, so human have to face and solve the problem. In order to escape D.I.E is the only so called coward solution. I don't mind to be coward if the "road is full of bumpy".